Already December?!

Wow. Time flies these days. I just want to slam on the breaks, and say 'whoa, wait a minute!' Everytime I see my neices and nephews, they are another foot taller. And, this next year I will be 25! I just can not believe it. There is a part of me that does just want this part of my life to hurry and be over though. I wish I could wake up tomorrow in my thirties, married, out of college, and settled into who I want to be. But, that would take the fun out of things, wouldn't it? NO! I don't like making decisions! It's so hard, and I am afraid to commit to anything. I put off finishing college, because I was afraid of deciding what to do 40 hours a week for the rest of my life. But, I know now that a college degree will give me plenty of opportunities to explore options. And deciding who to marry!? I don't understand how people do that?! I mean, I have heard that you 'just know,' but i am really starting to doubt that I will ever be able to stand before someone and say that I will share the rest of my life with, no matter what. I guess I haven't met the right guy, that will show me that that is NOT so scary. And, I think part of it is that I know I couldn't possibly be 'the right person' for anyone! I am so scattered, stubborn, and hard to put up with. .......................................Ick. I just need to sleep off this stress.